But I do it anyway! I have aphasia. I had a stroke. It pains me. I get dizzy. I needed to fix my gaze as though I was car sick. It’s just so frustrating.
The books say it….
affects comprehension and production of words, sentences, and/or discourse. It is typically characterized by errors in word retrieval or selection
- Here’s an example: the mind changes my written word “horse” into ‘cow”. My fingers keep typing “horse”, “horse”. “horse”. But my eyes see “cow”, “cow”, “cow”.
Over the dozen op so years since my stroke, I’ve learned to compensate. A little bit. My spelling is atrocious. I live or die with my spell checker. I know lots of words. I just can’t produce them.
- Another example: phonemic paraphasias. I couldn’t say that if the Mujaheddin terrorists demanded it on my life. P.P, as I’ll call it, is substituting sounds in the word. Like calling a “horse” a force or porse or norse. As you can imagine, such transpositions an be hilarious. Or mortally embarrassing. Thankfully, I have a wicked sense of humor that allows me to dance away from most situations.
- Circumlocutions are saying “horse”, but all you can say is, “What’s the word for that animal that you ride with a saddle”. Right. But no cigar!
- Then there are neologisms: sounds that are NOT words, but a confusion of words and spelling errors and ‘sound-a-likes’ that get the job done [mostly] but are technically inaccurate.
This is my typology. Its not NEW, but its newly conceptualized. They’re calling it “jargon aphasia“.
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You’ll see me referencing this post again and again. Sometimes I just get into a loop where I can’t find words, or spell them, or think them, or physically produce the muscle/nerve connections for them.
Still, I write. Because I love people and the only way to communicate with them with words.
- Fun with Aphasia (splashofthegoldfishcrackers.wordpress.com)
- Discourse in Aphasia (psypress.com)
- An Unrepentant Aphasic (mysowsear.wordpress.com)
- If I am having trouble speaking is it possible that I have aphasia? (zocdoc.com)
- Normal is just a word away: Program puts people struggling to speak back on track (seattletimes.nwsource.com)
- Living with aphasia (redoable.wordpress.com)